Not Alone

You have the only voice that can shake this

The only words that can take this

And make this something

I know is silly

And I see that

I'm not so weak just yet

I can still flow in the river

And not flail in the water

Flop towards the bank

And die

Gasping for air

In the sunlight

That was once my fight

All I wanted

All I craved

All I questioned

All I saved

Because it is precious

I tucked it under my pillow

Where I will lay my head

And sleep

And I stop crying and sink deep

Into what I hope for

What I try to see

I know what peace is

I have heard wind tell me

The river I ride propels me

But I am only a canoe

And I don't know

What I can do to see

That you are here with me

So I struggle

My thumbs search for buttons

My ears search for ringing

My mind says please

If I can just hear you singing

One song

Say goodnight

Say I love you

That's enough

Is it wrong

To long for something

Or someone

All I have is here

Because my sense of self

Of here or there

Of not or real

Is still here

And when I get like this

It's all a mess

And I have no guess

What to know

What to question

What answers to search for

Or what riddles to guess at

What doors to knock at

What idols to gawk at

And pray to

And hope through

And I don't know

What to crave

Is a craving

A want

Or need

Something just in passing

What should I seek

What is meaning

What is my greeting

When you finally answer the phone

And tell me

My love

You aren't alone